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Everything is complicated. I’ve decided I DON’T want another computer to contend with since I’ll either need another monitor or a KVM and to move the server over to be the mud computer I’d lose my ability to limit connections to 10 and some other features I like dhcp for the laptop I think…

I get home to have the file server delete my start menu and my desktop. and basicly anything that was as directory in windows.

Beyond the sadness of seeing my room turned into a game room for my brother, Thanksgiving was a pretty good vacation.

We drove down wednesday night and got in at 1 in the morning. At lunch Thursday we went to eat with Brian and his family. We had a good time there and then went to eat in Levelland for dinner. My nephew Kris seemed pretty interested in retardbot, it’s nice to see a younger generation looking at something like that and not thinking it’s boring.

Friday we spent with Brian and Carol and ate dinner at 50th street caboose with them and Shannon and Lori.

Saturday I ate at Mean Woman and got drunk.

Today I came home..
Don’t know what else to say about that.

Stayed with Dustin tonight. I got drunk for the first time since I moved….I wish I could do it more often! tomorrow we’re going back to Houston. I miss it here. I need to get a job in houston to see if that helps with my homesickness.

Shelly and I talked until like 5 am and then we got up at 7 and I sat in the car for 4 hours while she worked her half day. After that we went and had sushi buffet at kirin. Afterwards We drove from 1:30pm-1:00am get in…We made many phone calls to tell people that we were here. We’re going to go to bed now….BTW, I think I’m a yoyo… I’m going to remake a nekojin again.

It looks good on her. She also bought some sexy underwear that she also looks really hot in. Carol might be going out of town while we’re in lubbock this week.

sigh…I guess I should pack…

mehcwarrior 3 doesn’t appear to work on any of the machines…how depressing.

I have these thoughts of things I want to do with Shelly…Some embarrasing…some she finds just completely disgusting and complains when the subject gets brought up….I want to lock myself away and not have to deal with this…I want to live in lubbock again but Brian Goldbard, my one shot at having a place to stay, is going out of town this weekend…Sometimes I think I should never have been in a relationship and then I could have avoided this situation and saved shelly 5 years of dissapointment and frustration at not understanding me….I like the flashing because I like showing off what I have to people and I like shelly’s body…..the other stuff I’m just a horrid freak who would have been killed 100 years ago for having thoughts like that….sigh I wish those days were here….

I hate my mind and the thoughts that go through it.

I broke apache today….no more websight until I figured out what I did….I really should update that version of linux…..oh well don’t want to mess up the masquerading and the pppoe